Dark Chocolate

What always happens: Me knowing a guy at his worst, mending his mistakes, falling for him, being with him then eventually breaking up with him when he’s at his best.

And that’s why now, I have doubts in my head and a fear of securing myself into a relationship. It’s not about trust or love, it’s about timing. And timing sucks. And being too scared to take risks while learning timing sucks.

Life per se cannot depend on fate – like how that old song goes “Whatever will be, will be.” Nope. Because in time, what happens in life is basically our own doings and/or doings by other people who we have allowed to take and make such actions in our lives. Fate is sweet, yes. But having the ability to twist it might just make things sweeter.

I know I’m not heading to a clear point with this entry. It’s just that there are things I would like to fix and would love to happen but could not. And I just can’t wait for fate because time is a bitch, and time can do anything to fail you.

Will I wait or will I do something? Will I push things the way I want them to or will I let them occur?

These are the questions in which its answers only lie after the end. And the end could be sweet, sour, or bitter. Life takes its pick.